I’m freezing and losing my way
I don’t need another map of your head
I’m freezing and losing my way
I don’t need another map of your head

I saw a liquid control
That gives life to a soul
I hit my head on it and woke up to know
That I was all alone
Wearing just socks and a phone
Someone’s screaming like their world might explode

Yeah I’m freezing and losing my way
I don’t need another map of your head
I’m freezing and losing my way
I don’t want another map of your head
God, I feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage I cannot fight
I’d be the last to help you understand
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Nothing’s true and nothing’s right
So let me be alone tonight
Cause you can’t change the way I am
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I’ll believe
Lie to me
But please don’t leave

I have a face I cannot show
I make the rules up as I go
It’s try and love me if you can
Are you strong enough to be my man?

When I’ve shown you that I just don’t care
When I’m throwing punches in the air
When I’m broken down and I can’t stand
Will you be strong enough to be my man?

I was never faithful
And I was never one to trust
Borderlining schizo
And guaranteed to cause a fuss
I was never loyal
Except to my own pleasure zone
I’m forever black-eyed
A product of a broken home

I was never faithful
And I was never one to trust
Borderline bipolar
Forever biting on your nuts
I was never grateful
That’s why I spend my days alone
I’m forever black-eyed
A product of a broken home

Cause it’s a bittersweet symphony, this life
Trying to make ends meet
You’re a slave to money then you die
I’ll take you down the only road I’ve ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
where all the veins meet yeah
No change, I can’t change
I can’t change, I can’t change
But I’m here in my mind
I am here in my mind
But I’m a million different people
from one day to the next
I can’t change my mind
No, no, no, no, no, no, no,no,no,no,no,no[Fading away]
Well I never pray
But tonight I’m on my knees yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airways are clean and there’s nobody singing to me now
No change, I can’t change
I can’t change, I can’t change
But I’m here in my mind
I am here in my mind
And I’m a million different people
from one day to the next
I can’t change my mind
No, no, no, no, no, no, no
I can’t change
I can’t change it
‘Cause it’s a bittersweet symphony, this life
Trying to make ends meet
Trying to find some money then you die
I’ll take you down the only road I’ve ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
where all the veins meet yeah
You know I can’t change, I can’t change
I can’t change, I can’t change
But I’m here in my mind
I am here in my mind
And I’m a million different people
from one day to the next
I can’t change my mind
No, no, no, no, no
I can’t change my mïnd
no, no, no, no, no,
I can’t change
Can’t change my body,
no, no, no
I’ll take you down the only road I’ve ever been down
I’ll take you down the only road I’ve ever been down
Been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
That you’ve ever been down
That you’ve ever been down….

The end of the century,
I said my goodbyes
For what it´s worth I always aim to please
But I nearly died

For what it´s worth come on lay with me
cause I´m on fire
For what it´s worth I tear the sun in three
To light up your eyes

Broke up the family, everybody cried
For what it´s worth I have a slow disease
That sucked me dry
For what it´s worth come on walk with me
Into the rising tide
For what it´s worth filled a cavity
Your god shaped hole tonight

No one cares when you´re out on the street
Picking up the pieces to make ends meet
No one cares when you´re down in the gutter
Got no friends got no lover

Its in the water baby
its in the pills that bring you down
its in the water baby
its in the bag of golden brown
its in the water baby
its in your frequency
its in the water baby
its between you and me
It’s in the water baby
It’s in the pills that pick you up
It’s in the water baby
its in the special way we fuck
It’s in the water baby
its in your family tree
It’s in the water baby
its between you and me
bite the hand that feeds
tap the vein that bleeds
down on my bended knees
id break the back of love for you
id break the back of love for you
id break the back of love for you
Id break the back of love for you
Its in the water baby
its in the pills that bring you down
its in the water baby
its in the bag of golden brown
its in the water baby
its in your frequency
its in the water baby
its between you and me
bite the hand that feeds
tap the veïn that bleeds
down on my bended knees
I break the path of love for you

This one world vision
Turns us in to compromise
What good’s religion
When it’s each other we despise
Damn the government
Damn the killing
Damn the lies

Hush
It’s okay
Dry your eyes
Dry your eyes

Life’s An Ocean
Too much commotion, too much emotion
Dragging me down
Living for today, don’t have time to pray
Ready for the game
Take a line of fickle flame

Imagine the future
Woke up with a scream
I was buying some feelings
From a vending machine
Say that I will see
Something more than I have
There’s something inside of me
Crying out for something else
And if someone hears my scream
Put it in a letter to me
Slippery slimy road down

Life’s an ocean too much commotion

Not enough emotion to satisfy me
Slippery slidy road down
It’s slippery slidy road down

Hold my hand and we’ll walk down
Dry those eyes and we’ll walk down
And now I’m trying to tell you
About my life
And my tongue is twisted
And more dead than alive
And my feelings
They’ve always been betrayed
And I was born a little damaged man
And look what they paid

I said, don’t you find
That it’s lonely to ??

Your alone ??
And life is a game
You’ve tried
And life is a game
You’re tired
I’m on the corner, waiting for a light to come on,
That’s when I know that you’re alone
It’s cold in the desert, water never sees the ground
Special unspoken without sound

You told me you loved me, that I’d never die alone
Hand over your heart, let’s go home
Everyone noticed, everyone has seen the signs
I’ve always been known to cross lines

I’ve never ever cried when I was feeling down
I’ve always been scared of the sound
Jesus don’t love me, no one ever carried my load
I’m too young to feel this old

Is it you, is ït me
Or does nobody know, nobody see
Nobody but me

when you try your best but you don’t succeed
when you get what you want but not what you need
when you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
stuck in reverse

and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can’t replace
when you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

high up above or down below
when you’re too in love to let it go
and if you never try, you’ll never know
just what you’re worth

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

Tacere rece si umeda ca o carcera.

Albastru nu e culoarea mea preferata. Multa vreme asa am crezut. Dar acum imi  dau seama ca rosu e. Rosu aprins, ca rosul ala de sus. Rosu e mai vesel decat albastru, e mai viu.

Albastru e diabolic, inselator, de cele mai multe ori transparent. Si ii place sa ia diverse forme. Ai crede ca apa e albastra uneori, si cand colo e doar reflexia cerului…kinda tricky, huh?:)

Ai crede ca e seren, relaxant, calm…e doar o masca, o iluzie.

Blue it’s evil that’s why it’s sad. It’s bad to be blue(sad). Blue it’s so evil…but full of beauty, deathly beauty…and that’s why sadness is beautiful, because it’s smart…u gotta be smart to be able to fool so many people:)

I’d rather dream of warm blood than freezing water.

Realitatea e rosie, visul albastru. Materialul, placerile lumesti tin de rosu; idealurile si implicit dezamagirile, suferintele tin de albastru. Da, de aceea imi placea albastru atat de mult. De fapt inca imi place, dar incerc sa ma amagesc (amagiri specific albastre), pentru ca albastrul DOARE!

mi-am lasat, fara habar,

zambetu’ intr-un sertar.

nu  stiam de ce ma-ntreaba

oamenii, ce trec pe strada,

de ce sunt asa posaca?

m-am uitat intr-o oglinda

ca uimirea sa ma prinda:

o furtuna intr-un chip,

ce nu insemna nimic.

si atunci m-am linistit,

si pe loc mi-am amintit

de sertarul ce-ascundea

ceea ce imi tot lipsea.

]]> http://multzgomotpentrunimic.wordpress.com/2010/09/05/o-fata-colorata/feed/ 0 multzgomotpentrunimic pict 001 http://multzgomotpentrunimic.wordpress.com/2010/08/11/despre-luceferi-vampiri-si-fluturi/ http://multzgomotpentrunimic.wordpress.com/2010/08/11/despre-luceferi-vampiri-si-fluturi/#comments Wed, 11 Aug 2010 21:14:36 +0000 MAC http://multzgomotpentrunimic.wordpress.com/?p=230 ]]> Nu putea sa inchida ochii. Privea fix in tavanul pe care se derulau imagini psihotice cu indragostiti, imbratisari si inimioare roz si pufi…imagini ce o scarbeau atat de tare. Ii era atat de frica. Isi simtea sufletul gol si rece precum un cavou ce-si asteapta mortul. Incepu sa-si plimbe degetele pe peretele zgrunturos din dreapta ei si sa zgarie moturile tencuielii. Se simtea agitata. El intra in camera, incet, ca o umbra. Se aseza langa patul ei. Ii sulfa usor peste degetele de la picioare. Ea il vedea intunecat, cu capul plecat langa gleznele ei. Ii simtea parul atingandu-i pielea si rasuflarea de gheata. Se ridica in capul oaselor, cu parul lung ravasit, cazut peste umeri si peste sani. Se uita speriata la tanarul ce-i gadila talpile. Din varfurile degetelor incepura sa-i iasa fluturi albastri, luminati de razele lunii. Ea ii lua fata in palme. Ochii lui ii cantau melodii fantastice, ii pictau viitorul, ii modelau rodurile pantecelui, ochii lui scriau pe pielea ei poezii rosii, negre si albe si din cand in cand si albastre. Ochii lui erau ca ai ei, doar ca putin mai stralucitori. Si-i spunea sa zambeasca, sa aiba rabdare. O mangaie pe crestet , lua o pensula si-i picta buzele cu alb. O saruta precum ar fi sarutat o petala de floare, fara sa o striveasca. Se ridica in picioare. Ii zambea iar in intunericul camerei ea ii vedea buzele pictate in alb.

aMuse me

But I can’t seem to forget

When you came along… Just do what you do”

“simt cum parca mi se scurge viata, ca nisipul ala din clepsidra. nici nu realizezi cat de repede se scurge…si apoi pur si simplu sta culcat la pamant..nu se mai prelinge prin ochiul ala de sticla, atras de gravitatie…pentru ca nu mai e, s-a terminat,caput. si dup-aia intorci clespsidra..si se intampla acelasi lucru..iar si iar si iar…dar daca clepsidra se sparge? si firicelele de nisip se imprastie prin jur…”

“si-mi place mirosul de cafea. ce bine ar fi sa mirosi a cafea. sau sa mirosi a tu si sa-mi placa mai mult”

“uneori am impresia ca nu am maini, nu am picioare…si ce fac oare?”

“nimeni nu neaga nimic. negatia suprema?”